Living with Grief
It has been absolutely amazing to hear stories of individuals
who have taken the important steps to see their doctor and change their
lifestyle. Please keep sharing Peters Story because each share has the
potential to educate even more people to do the same. Saving a life can happen with just one share!
I do know that many people still share the mentality that Peter
and I did. That it would never happen
and there was so much time left to take those important steps. I also think there is a line that many people
do not cross when it comes to encountering grief. It can be an uncomfortable, awkward situation
if you are not going through it.
Why do I think it’s important to share this article? Because if the story hasn’t hit home yet, I
am hoping sharing the pain does. I am
hoping that by sharing what my family now lives through, that it will light a
fire under those who still don’t appreciate the importance of this story.
Before this experience, I had no concrete idea how or what
people were going through when dealing with grief at this magnitude. And daily life just takes you away in your
own little world. Everything that is not
in front of your face just seems very distant so understanding another person’s
grief can be very foreign.
Let me take you through a day in the life. Not for anyone to feel sorry, but to simply
make you understand that this could be you.
I wouldn't wish these feelings on anyone. You have the chance to make a different ending to your story!
Life is like the movie “Groundhog day”. You wake up each morning repeating every devastating
detail over and over again. You cannot
change a thing. Each day feels like someone
has kicked you in the stomach, a nauseous feeling that you cannot do anything
about. You feel like you are completely
out of control because emotions run their own course. You have no control over the tears, the
sadness, the anger, the fear and each emotion will show its face on its own
time. The days are spent sobbing and wondering
how the hell you can live the rest of your life like this, without the person
you love. Then one day, you will get the
feeling that maybe you can survive and you can get through this but as soon as
that feeling shows its face, you are kicked in the stomach again. It is the most
horrible, dark feeling of sadness. You
will be run over with guilt on the days you smile. You will be knocked on your ass more times in
one day than you can imagine. You will
cry more than you have in your entire life prior to this experience. Think about living like this for the rest of
your life and living in a shell of who you once were. Having days when you cannot face anyone and
fighting against thoughts so depressing you have no idea how to get out of
them. Each commute to work and home is
spent in tears. Every song you hear
reminds you of him/her. You will be
overcome with guilt for living while the person you miss will never have the
chance to experience life again.
I can honestly say I understand how people give up. How you hear stories of couples who have
spent their entire life together and die of a broken heart, as people say,
after they lose their spouse. You just
want to mentally and physically give up.
It is horrible sadness, devastation, fear, loneliness & anxiety all
rolled into one monstrous emotion that you cannot control.
How do you explain to people how horrible and dark your days are
without them feeling awkward? You
don’t! So you go about your day faking
your smiles and making sure others are comfortable. You see everyone living their lives and yours
just sits there, repeating the hell, day in and day out. You look forward to falling asleep because it
is the only time you don’t think about your loss.
Doesn't sound like a story you would want to dive into, does it.
What if you had the chance to change a path in life? What if you could potentially save your own
life or another by sharing a story and change your mentality. What if you could get another 40 years with
the person you Love.
Would you do it? You have a choice to make a positive impact on your health and others.
One share is all it takes!
#sharepetersstory
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